Monday, 02 January 2012

  • Pornography is violent

    I still haven't decided if I should go into detail to prove my title or if I should let you mull it over on your own and reach the same conclusion. While at Mass this morning, Fr's homily was a reflection of sorts written by a German priest during WWII times who was arrested for anti-Nazi sentiments. At the tale end of the reflection, I caught the word "violent". Fr's homilies from today and yesterday were what I needed to hear, especially yesterday's, as it seemed like Fr. just spoke freely, with his jokes and a rough outline written out beforehand. Yesterday, Fr talked about resolutions and how a certain writer of faith would focus on certain words that she believed the Spirit was using to guide her contemplation. Fr. recommended that we not set such lofty resolutions but instead be open to how God can perhaps do the same thing as He did with the author and exhorted us to find a word, and ultimately we ought to find the Word...

    Anyway, as I was preparing for confession, the word "violent" struck me. It seemed like I spent the rest of Mass meditating more on how violent my sins were and less on the actually mystery... sorry, but it's still a grace to be inspired with the horror of sin, so as to lead to repentance. I thought about how, specifically with pornography, we take one of the most precious gifts God has given us, and completely destroy it. By it's very nature, porn is violent. Sure, we might be lead to believe that it's good and, if between consenting adults who supposedly love each other, well anything goes (...and what's worse is when some teach that certain sexual acts are totally okay because the Bible doesn't say either way...but that's another post's topic)... and yes we might even be able to see some hints of beauty in the body of the other. However, I still stand by my titular assertion. If you need illustrative examples of this point, message me. I don't want to lead anyone into sin and will thus avoid explicit descriptions.

    One of the things I love about the Catholic Church is that while the rest of the world and even other churches threw out all the decorations and boxed up Christmas on December 26th (heck I even heard that one dad unplugged the tree one last time as soon as all the gifts were unwrapped Christmas morning!), we're STILL CELEBRATING CHRISTMAS!! The Yuletide technically ends with the Feast of the Epiphany, if I'm not mistaken. I'm a bit hazy on the details about the Octave of Christmas, but I'm sure someone out there is more knowledgeable than I and can correct me. During the Advent and Christmas season, we hear much about the coming of Christ as foretold by the prophets. Today, the last of the Great Prophets, John the Baptist, the Prophet of the Most High, gives his witness to the One who comes after Him. After confession, I continued to meditate on JtB's preaching and how doom and gloom it is. Often we have the tendency to stop there. It sucks because that's not really good news, ya kno? Repent or go to hell! What good does it do if we call our fellow human beings, 'a brood of vipers'? Other prophets speak of God's wrath...scary stuff... but is that really the God we want others to see? I totally understand that we must recognize the sinfulness of our actions and how much that offends God...which is my point... yet, this message does no good without hope...

    Yet I watched a parishioner walk up to the manger scene displayed in the sanctuary and I thought, what does all this scary, negative stuff have to do with the Baby Jesus? I mean, 'sinners in the hands of an angry god' just is not compatible with 'an infant wrapped in swaddling clothes and laying in a manger'. My meditation drew me deeper into the depth of the winter mystery. Jesus totally flips everything on it's head. While we're expecting something from the movies this year, we could totally miss the fact that He came like a winter snow...



    So, to sum up, you've probably done some nasty things in 2011. You might even be caught in some pretty rough cycles of addiction. Despite these things, don't let this Christmastide pass without contemplating why the God of the universe decide to share in the human experiment. Heck, stop by the nearest Catholic church; there should still be a Nativity scene set up. Put aside your fears about worshipping a statue and focus on the meaning behind the image.

    On a side note, I'm going to try to develop better habits, like blogging more, to kick my worse ones, like...well you can imagine. Given that, I want to be intentional with my blogs. Hopefully that's evident by all the tags I've included. Also, I posted this originally on my other blog (http://3-tmddstett.blogspot.com/) because i can't figure out how to put a link in the text since xanga changed things. Go there for some extras!

Saturday, 31 December 2011

  • 2011 in review

    So here is my post about how the year 2011 went. Given that facebook is becoming this timeline thing, i can see its use. however, i am NOT supportive of the format to be a permanent feature. i agree with one of my friends that it should be optional. anyway, as i write this, i try to think back on the year... i can really only go back as far as the summer, contiguously, that is. so, i was thinking that i'll use facebook and the fotos i posted there to help jog my memory.

    so, here we go, with a simple month by month review. we'll see where we go from there

    january
    the highlight of january was my first ever march for life. i love the Church. that trip showed me just how alive the Church is in fact and how unified we really are, even if it seems otherwise on a myopic scale. plus, it was a great time to connect with the students who also went on the trip. i am really excited for this year's trip, which is just a few weeks away.

    february
    obviously, my birth month. i remember everyone singing to me at spaghetti dinner and a few students made me an awesome cake. i hope this year, when i turn 25, i will be absolutely SURPRISED by what friends do for me. never had one of those... hm...

    march
    a lot happened in march. the first week in march was the mission trip to luisa, ky. i really enjoyed it, tho it reminded me a lot of the trips to harlan with high school youth group. good times, good works.
    another highlight from march was our parish mission, featuring fr. nathan cromly. little did i know that getting to know that good old priest monk would change the rest of my life...well, at least that i would see him quite often over the year... and i hope it's a friendship that will continue in the future. anyway, fr nathan is a religious priest with the community of st. john. he's involved with many apostolates, a few of which he started...more on that later. anyway, he did an amazing job preaching the mission. i attended every session i could with him, and even had the privilege of sharing breakfast with him and 2 of my coworkers.
    also in march, another university parish help their first ever retreat, which we helped them put on. i was asked to give the same witness i gave on our retreat. a few of their students attended that retreat in order to get it started at their parish. it was such and honor and a blessing to serve them, yet furthermore build relationships with others among the universal Church.

    april
    there wasn't much exciting about april, so i'll take a moment to discuss some of the activities and such that i was overall involved in at my job, my ministry. first, as i mentioned before, spaghetti dinners. i organize the volunteers and help make and serve the food. i also lead a bible study, tho attendance dropped second semester due to schedule conflicts. additionally, i was put in charge of the adoration schedule. most importantly, meeting with students and just forming bonds with them in daily life. that kind of thing is hard to measure. okay... i'm not sure where i'm going with this paragraph so onto may

    may
    on may 5, our staff and some students went to see the minor league baseball team game. another great time. we all were given sombreros! ole!
    the semester ended and the students went home... mostly. there were a few students who stayed. it was during the may to june period that i took to videogames once again. one of the students let me borrow his wii. that was an enjoyable time, as some of the guys who were still around in the summer joined me in rounds of super smash bros and links crossbow training.

    june
    see may

    july
    so one of the main reasons i, admittedly, took it easy early summer was that i and one of the students were sent to a program called ecclesia. run by none other than fr. nathan cromly, ecclesia is a month of solid formation that centers around the new evangelization. it was yet another amazing time of growth for me as well as networking with other Catholics from round the country, making lasting friendships.

    august
    as soon as ecclesia ended, i was off to the courage conference. such a joyous time, especially compared to the year prior's conference. last year's wasn't bad, but it just seemed like there was an atmosphere of redemptive suffering and penance. this year's spirit was much lighter and everyone seemed so happy to see friends again...friends they only get to see once a year at these conferences. this year, ironically, was the first conference since fr. harvey passed away. it was much more like we celebrated his life and the amazing work he did for the Church as opposed to mourning the loss. fr harvey is still praying for those near to his heart and the fruits of those prayers were evident at the conference.
    not only was courage great, but a few days after that, i went on world youth day. holy moley! talk about the universal Church! it was such a blessed time...despite the fact that i caught a parasite that gave me the runs for days on end...

    september
    coming back to reality was hard... not sure if i'm fully recovered, honestly... or at the very least, i didn't prepare myself well for what was to come in the past four months... at this point, i'll simply say that it's been a struggle almost every week... yet i will not give up, no matter how often i fall...

    the semester started back up. with new staff members an a renewed apostolic zeal from the summer, i was really ready to meet new students and take on the campus... i think we did a decent job, but we can always do better.
    one thing that was added to my responsibilities this year was out sunday night catechetical program where students are encouraged and challenged to explore the richness of the Catholic faith by 'Going Deeper'...hm, i wonder what it's called. anyway, it's been a great way see the students grow, and such a privilege to direct their walks in such a real way.
    oh yeah the audrey assad concert happened in september. that was a wonderful and fun night.

    october
    a highlight from early october was the switchfoot and anberlin concert. i enjoyed audrey assad, and am trying to organize something for the spring... but if it's even fair to compare concerts, switchfoot/anberlin was much more entertaining. yet, i digress that it would not be fair to compare the shows, so i'll stop there.
    we had some fun parties at the parish in october, including a homecoming formal and a halloween party. both were a blast and a half.

    november
    a VERY busy month. i attended part of the retreat put on by the other university parish (that's kind how the retreat goes, but i don't want to spoil anything for anyone), their second one. on the way back, my car broke down. it'd been having problems...since i got it actually. there'd been times i'd go several weeks without being able to drive because it needed a fix i couldn't afford. so finally, when the fix was just too expensive, i sold it... for way less than what i paid... live and learn, detached. the next weekend was our parish's turn to hold the retreat. it was really great to see the fruit of the work we'd been charged with all semester come to fruition on that retreat.
    just before thanksgiving break, i treated myself to the new zelda game. it's so epic...yet it was challenging. i gotta admit that i was frustrated multiple times. turns out that the random wii shut offs helped me from playing too much on any given day.
    thanksgiving was good to see family, but didn't need it to be as long as it was.

    december
    the last month. ballroom mass was great, despite the rainy weather. more people would have easily attended if not for the inclement conditions.
    one of the last men's nights we did was dodgeball. it caught on better than the monster mash, so much so that we played it on a weekly basis as the semester came to a close. they were just fun nights of guys having manly time of brotherhood.
    and speaking of brothers, i made yet another retreat with.... you guessed it, the brothers of st john. it was really awesome to see fr. nathan again. this retreat, tho, was to discern my vocation. i didn't get to talk to fr much because he's not directly responsible for promoting their community and inciting vocation with them, nor does he oversee the novices. other priests in his order locally do that.
    and of course christmas. again, great time to see family. i didn't receive any huge presents, but what i did get was very intentional and meant a lot. what i gave was good too. my mom loved her 'main' gift: a picture of me and my younger brother, recreated. we then put both fotos in a 2 foto frame. everyone else who received a gift from me liked it and was thankful. given that i didn't need much time to see my family over thanksgiving, i decided not to take off any extra time and just go home for the friday before and come back the monday after.


    so... all in all, i'd say that this year was full of joy, and some struggles to still overcome, new friendships, even some from across the country and around the world. as i look into 2012, i'm hopeful... there are many new relationships to foster, and some to renew, including my own with Christ, through His Mother's intercession. may the blessings keep flowing.

Thursday, 22 September 2011

  • makes one think, eh?

    so, i've been struggling with lust a lot the past few weeks... in thought and action. and even though i've been going to confession and seeking the Lord's mercy and forgiveness through His Holy Church, i'm left to wonder... am i the kind of sinner who will eventually find lasting freedom in this life from these sins, or am i gonna face this til the day i die? is my last confession on the face of this planet going to sound something like this: "Bless me Father, for I have sinned. I masturbated/looked at porn/traded pic/had webcam sex/hooked up with guy(s)/(fill in the lustful blank)"?

    I started to think of my dad... and how he stopped smoking by telling himself that he's not going to have the next cig...because the idea of never smoking again just makes one who's been smoking for most of his life kind of overwhelmed and worried and then just ends up breaking anyway... and of course these vices, these bad habits i face are similar to addiction, if i'm not already addicted... but i've gotten to the point where i've prayed every prayer, asked almost every saint for help, surrendered my life, and done everything else i can think of short of professing the evangelical counsels (though i have committed myself to chastity, something every person on the face of the planet is called to)... and well still i find myself being reminded that His Grace is sufficient...even when it seems like it's not...

    and some of you may be thinking, well maybe you didn't truly surrender, or you didn't pray the right prayer, or even it's cuz you're trying to earn salvation through good works because you're Catholic. let me just stop you right there and tell you with everything in me that those statements are false... and while you're at it, thanks for judging me, at the very least.

    there's no magical formula. i get that. the Church doesn't offer any... i know that it takes my weak will made perfect in Christ.

    and i know others of you might say that i'm still living my faith intellectually and not letting it drop 12 in. to my heart... i don't think that's the case either because I ask for that daily in different ways... i guess my point with all this is to say that if you think you know the solution to my problem, if it is a problem, please don't even let your mind go there...

    just be my St. Monica...though i'm already in the Church...whatever... and join the rest of the Communion of Saints in prayer...

    that should be all. i need to sleep.

Monday, 19 September 2011

  • St. Therese

    St. Therese Novena 2011!

    I am joining over 2900 Catholics to pray the St. Therese Novena!

    I’m pretty excited to pray this with so many faithful Catholics around the world and I thought you’d like to join too!

    There are thousands of people praying through this novena website and there will be millions praying around the world.

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    Let’s get all the Catholics we know to pray this novena together to St. Therese!

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